Daily Infusion

If I have learned one thing over the past six months of life, it’s that we all desperately crave inspiration in our day to day lives. I refer to this phenomenon as Starving Soul Syndrome. I think a complex etiology is to blame. Facebook, local news, text messaging, etc., etc. have their rightful place in our contemporary world, but the constant whirlwind of our day to day lives rarely afford us the moments of nourishment our souls require to simply breathe and sustain life.

In the desperate days following TC’s attack, I used to wish for the type of day to day problems that used to drive me nuts: unpaid bills, dirty bathrooms, unreturned e-mails. You know the type. Now I find myself buried under an unnaturally monstrous load of administrative and household maintenance tasks. You would not believe how much work it takes to go from being a two income typical American family to the full time chauffeur of a two year old and a disabled husband. Lots of paperwork involved.

I suppose the moral of the story is be careful what you wish for. To anyone who has the misfortune of calling me this week, I’d like to issue a public apology. Cranky would be a generous description of my overall mood and I have been more than eager to describe (i.e. dump) my plight on anyone polite enough to listen. Each time I have thrown my hands up in the universe in frustration and asked, “What more?,” that silly little universe has found a new and creative speed bump to throw in my path. 

It doesn’t help that I have a terrible habit of trying to do it all. At one time. And as I prepare to go out of town this weekend for my first fun retreat in over half a year, I have tried to get every possible affair in order. In my ideal mind, I get on the plane, I order a bloody mary, and then I worry about NOTHING. For 72 hours. I have been determined to make it happen.

But today, as I tried to keep my balance in the heavy rain and wind, my wet hair blowing in all directions and sticking awkwardly to my face, I was ready to admit defeat. I was getting in the car after a 2.5 hour vet appointment, feeling $500 poorer, and wondering how, with all my responsibilities, I’d ever remember to give Spencer the expensive ear drops he’d just been prescribed. I barely remember to brush Jack’s teeth let alone check to make sure TC has taken his seizure medicine. Overwhelmed would be one word choice, but I’m not sure it fully captures the insanity of my daily to do list. The real kicker of today though was not the weight of yet another responsibility, it was the frustration of feeling frustrated. 

“Why am I so annoyed this week?,” I wondered silently. “Why are all these stupid things getting to me?” I was under the assumption that the newfound insight I’d gained as a result of recent life experiences would be enough to combat the blues associated with the more mundane life issues. Getting upset about vet bills and carpet stains is what normal people do. I’m supposed to be enlightened!

But with a daily schedule that involves clocking 3-4 hours in the car (not counting the frequent commutes up to DC!), I realize I, like everyone else, need a daily dose of soulfulness. Sure, my frequent trips to Starbucks provide momentary joy in a jam packed day, but they’re not exactly the type of reflective, meditative experience that rejuvenates the soul.

Realizing that I need these moments of inspiration to live better has been as important a discovery as figuring out exactly how to achieve them. These days I am much better trained to find opportunities for a soul infusion. Sometimes it’s just a matter of allowing myself to enjoy them. I hope that in writing this new blog, I will have the pleasure of sharing these moments with others and generating some positive energy around the challenge of living better.

And as for today, I am wisely putting away my to do list to enjoy some quiet time with Jack. I’m not sure there is anything more therapeutic than snuggling with a child. I believe the wisest parents take advantage of this for as long and often as their kid will allow. Tomorrow will bring a new list of chores and challenges, but for now, I will allow the steady rain and the warm sweetness of my son’s body to infuse me with a much needed dose of peace.

18 thoughts on “Daily Infusion

  1. Hi, I found your original blog just a few weeks after you started it, and I always looked forward to your thoughtful posts. I’m glad you’ve decided to continue writing here. Thanks for sharing the link!

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  2. Hi,
    I’ve been following “Love for the Maslins” from the start. I keep a card on my desk that has a picture of a full moon with the caption, “My barn having burned, I can now see the moon.” Your writings remind me of this. Looking forward to sharing your new blog.

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  3. You are so wonderful, so inspiring, a great writer, and a great wife and mother. That comes through so clearly in your “Love for the Maslins” blog, and I look forward to reading your thoughtful posts in this current blog. I suspect you have a much larger community of support out there than you realize, and we are ready to help with whatever you need.
    Hang in there!

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  4. Hae been following you for months and include you and your family in my daily prayers. You are inspiring and I wish you success in any venture you undertake.

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  5. If only for a few minutes daily, quiet meditation listening for what the universe (higher power? universal intelligence?) has to tell you, offer you; then writing it down, visiting it, loosely pondering it, can also serve as a small dose of soul infusion, sometimes evolving into a small surprising epiphany. Easier said than done, I know. I too am in need, and giving myself over to those few minutes of listening, even if every other day, takes discipline that I seem to lack. I hear but I am not listening. Maybe tomorrow…

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  6. Abby, I have never met you, yet I think about you, your husband, and son daily. Your courage and strength humbles me. I know some days it must feel like the world has moved on and forgotten….but please know that you are in the thoughts and prayers of many of us, every single day.

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  7. I’ve been following your husband’s recovery in your other blog since reading about it in Petula Dvorak’s column. You guys are amazing. I’m in awe.

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  8. Everyone before me has pretty much expressed my feelings. I have laughed and cried as I have read your other blog and am so happy that you are continuing to write. You are such an inspiration to others. There is a long list, I am sure, of those of us who wish we could help you in ANY way. If ever, just call on me. Enjoy your weekend …..and I am sure Nova Scotia will be a wonderful blessing…….

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  9. Hi Mrs. Maslin!
    I miss you so much! I hope that everything works out well for you!! Say “Hi” to Mr.Maslin and Jack for me!!
    Love’ Eleanor

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  10. It just occurred to me, I have a wonderful, amazing and dear friend who lives in Halifax. She has a son who is around 2.5 – please let me know if I can connect you two, she is amazing and I am sure would love to meet you. Obviously, you don’t know me – but I am a mom who lives in DC with a 2.5 year old daughter – I have been captivated and touched by your story from the beginning. Feel free to get in touch and I will introduce you to my friend – Best, Kari

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  11. I suspect I am like many. We don’t know you and your family personally, but we feel connected to you. I have carefully followed your beautiful posts and am relieved you will continue to honor us with the details of the promising journey you are on. I trust you feel the love and warm wishes we have for you all.

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  12. I’m so glad you have opened up this forum to share your thoughts on inspiration, happiness, faith. Just know that you yourself are an inspiration to so many.
    I recently saw in the NY Times a short blurb by the musician Aaron Neville that stuck with me. The snippet was titled “How to Have Swagger” and his advice was as follows: “Walk and strut your stuff, and be proud of who you are. Don’t look at the past or the future. Live in the now. When you’re on the street, never look down.”
    This little article, albeit slightly ridiculous, has given me daily inspiration when I feel as if I am underwater and trying to get to the surface. Living in the now – – the power of that one line can’t be underestimated. I carry this advice in my pocket, we should all carry it in our hearts.
    Much love to you and the Maslin boys from the EER family.

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  13. Hey Maslin! You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers every night. Your writing is beautiful. Its raw and real. Thank you for being so honest. Your an inspiration! The last time we saw each other you were pregnant. Your baby boy is beautiful! I wish you the best.

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  14. I can appreciate all that you said – I have a sister who is going through the same thing – your story really hit home – I can only imagine what she is going through – I do not live close to her I wish I did – hearing your story really brought it home to me – You and her are very special people and us who are not going through it have no idea of what it means to live this day in and day out – God Bless you and I will keep you like I do her in my prayers every day – Mary Sullivan Las Vegas, Nevada

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